Here alone, standing barefoot in our lawn,
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Worms squeezing their way through my toes
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Tonight that¡¯s how it goes.
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I¡¯m at your window kneeling quiet,
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I thought at least I¡¯d maybe try to get your head right
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Get your heart right
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¡°Let him go!¡±
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Then through the glass I see your dress fall to the floor
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As he embraces every inch of you
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The woman I adore.
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I can¡¯t believe the way you¡¯re bending
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Can¡¯t believe this neverending moaning asking him for more
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Begging him for more
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How far will I go
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To make it feel right? ¡°Come home¡±
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I have to fix this on my own
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Replace my heart,
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Cause I¡¯m convinced mine broke the day I let us end
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Replace my heart,
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I don¡¯t wanna live by coping, I¡¯m done with hoping¡¦. end
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I creeped in close enough to see the way he touched her,
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From her feet across her knees, inside her sweetest spot
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he pleased and pleased her.
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I turned around and tried to take control, but no control was capable
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It was a centerfold of how less than low can possibly go.
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I squeezed the life into my brain
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Like pushing knives into a vein
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I¡¯ve gotta get, I said I¡¯ve gotta get inside
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So to the back window I crawl in silent standing in the darkness
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Of my living room,
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This used to be my home
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How far will I go
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To make it feel right? ¡°Come home¡±
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I¡¯m moving forward to the bedroom door
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Replace my heart
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Cause I¡¯m convinced mine broke the day I let us end
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Replace my heart
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I don¡¯t wanna live by coping, I¡¯m done with hoping¡¦end
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I turn the doorknob with two fingers to be slow
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Enough to sneak into the room among the corner darkness gloom
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I had to see this happening.
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He pushed himself so deep inside her clapping rang and bounced off every wooden walled room
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And that¡¯s when all went silent blank except the color red
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As I walked calmly numbing paralyzed beside the bed
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I said ¡°I know I¡¯m not allowed to be here. I just had to see
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How good your new man really fucks you. Cause you both been fucking me.¡±
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¡°So now I planned the last thing you can both do as a pair
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I tie both blindfolds tight around your fucking eyes to blind your stare.
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I don¡¯t want to alarm you, but I figured we could end this in what seems easy quick and painless man,
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So I¡¯ll get down to business
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I choose you first, there¡¯s a gun, its at your head
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So laugh at me just one more time but put your face inside the bed
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You sit and watch me while I do this shit and learn from what I¡¯ve said.
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I cocked the pistol, pulled the trigger, and all I saw was red
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How far will I go
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To make it feel right? ¡°Come home¡±
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I have to fix this on my own
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Then the screaming oh the screaming
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It¡¯s nice to see you scared
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Of such a weak and stupid husband
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Who knows you never really cared
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I¡¯ll leave you with a question that I need to hear from your head
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Was all this worth it knowing you have just seconds left to live?
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Now think about your answer, lying face down on the bed
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I cocked the pistol pulled the trigger and all I saw was red
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I gently stroke her arm as she lies lifeless on her back
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Then I placed the barrel in my mouth
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All I saw was black.
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The End
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| Blue October |
