as we were taking outside it was cold we were shivering yet warmed by the subject matter
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my wife is in the next room we've been having troubles you know please don't tell her or anyone
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but I need to talk to somebody
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you said "wouldn't it be a shame if I knew how great I was five minutes before I died i'd be filled
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with such regret before I took my last breath" and I said "you're willing to tell me this now
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and you're not going to die any time soon"
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and I said I haven't been eating chicken or meat or anything and you said yes
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but you've been wearing leather and laughed and said we're at the top of the food chain
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and yes you're a fine woman and I cringed
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I was hoping I was hoping we could heal each other
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I was hoping I was hoping we could be raw together
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we left the restaurant where the head waiter (in his 60's) said "good-bye sir thank you for your business sir you're
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successful and established sir and we like the frequency with which you dine here sir
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and your money" and when I walked by they said "thank you too dear" I was all pigtails and cords
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and there was a day when I would've said something like "hey dude I could buy and sell this place so kiss it"
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I too once thought I was owed something
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I was hoping I was hoping we could challenge each other
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I was hoping I was hoping we could crack each other up
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I too thought that when proved wrong I lost somehow
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I too once thought life was cruel
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it's a cycle really you think i'm withdrawing and guilt tripping you I think you're insensitive
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and I don't feel heard and I said do you believe we are fundamentally judgmental? fundamentally evil?
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and you said yes I said I don't believe in revenge in right or wrong good or bad you said
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"well what about that man that I saw handcuffed in the emergency room bleeding after beating his kid
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and she threw a shoe at his head.
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I think what he did was wrong and I would've had a hard time feeling compassion for him"
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I had to watch my tone for fear of having you feel judged.
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I was hoping I was hoping we could dance together
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I was hoping I was hoping we could be creamy together
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I Was Hoping
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| Alanis Morissette |
