Look, I woke up without a heart beat
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But I remember we was just in the car deep
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Was at a light and got approached by a car thief
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He pulled out but didn't ask for no car keys
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A loud noise without a voice but I'm tryna scream out shit is not fair
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I can't tell you where I'm at or how I got here
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Surrounded by all white maybe its just cloudy
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Escorted by two men who knew everything about me
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Both of them so strong kept saying hold on
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Feel like my souls gone naked no clothes on
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I know this can't be my fate I scream WAIT!
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as they drop me infront of a gate
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They left no trace...
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I can see my every breath like a cold day
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Stood before a man with no face
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he said to me...
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Please don't make this any harder...
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WHO THE FUCK IS YOU?
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My child I'm your father...
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I only got one dad!
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Is that a fact to you? He left you when you was young I brought him back to you
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Your real close to heaven, few get to step in
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now tell me what you've done to deserve to be let in?
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Look I'm far from a christian Not big on religion
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But aint done too much wrong my entire time living
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Never killed never tried too tho I been lied to
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Was once suicidal never read the bible
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I always been a care taker tried to nurse people
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At times it back fired hurt people hurt people
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Plus I never use your name in vain
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But you should know everything I'm being asked to explain
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I know you stole from your mothers purse
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You can't count that, that was way back when!
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Its still a sin
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But I was ten!
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You robbed people, stole
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Yeah and YOU made me see jail!
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but I also seen you lay your hands on a female
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sold drugs to parents none of that was needed
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abandenned your child, on every girl you cheated
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Done wrong to people that only want the best for you
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Any time you thought you were alone I was next to you
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When it came to baby moms GOD you gave me the worse one!
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but that was your second child Joe you shouldn't killed the first one
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I aint have a job aint have a pot to piss in
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Look I gave you a gift and you made the wrong decision
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Held onto resentments even in doing business
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I lead by example, I teach forgiveness your entry can not be Gur-an-teed
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not when you live with anger, envy, greed
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pride, sloth, lust even gluttony
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everything you shouldn't if you woulda joined my company
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Look I'm only human I aint perfect.
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That I understand. When I take you out a jam
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you don't even think to worship, and when you do...
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you never talk about what you can do for me its what I can do for you?
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I blessed you with health, family and wealth
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with all the blessings you received you still always want help
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Yeah theres been times in my life I needed help to make money
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But why everything I love you manage to take from me?
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Yet you stand there an question a nigga that tries hard
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and finds a way when you keep dealing them FUCKED up cards!
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You make mistakes like ME far as I can see
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I think its a mockery whenever rich niggas win the lottery
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Gave us Busch twice God I hate to be rude
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But you let skinny niggas starve give obese niggas food
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THE NERVE of you telling me I don't deserve to stay here
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When you gave us drugs and GUNS you put AIDS here!
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Take a look at you, your actions are cold hearted
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The harsh shit is you bring babies in the world retarded
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I know most my actions put me in a cell
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But how you mad at me when you put me in the hell
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See my child you need gratitude, maybe just a sample
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I never give a person anything they cant handle
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Don't tell me about everything you had to go through
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there's reasons for my actions even if I never showed you
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Kept trying with you all you did was hurt me
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still gave you chances to prove that you was worthy
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and so I sat with you on a train I asked you for change
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you kept calling me names. Prolly didnt notice
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I was the store clerk, you put the gun to me get money for more work
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my child I know you have it in you to indeed stop
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this is not your final calling just a brief stop
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Hope you heed my words and understand
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so when I see you back you should be a better man
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| look at life differ |
