I'm historically heartbroken
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Drownin' in my own emotions
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One minute away from breakin' down, down, down
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I'm always leavin' empty-handed
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No one wants a heart that's damaged
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Only know a love that lets me down, down, down
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Oh, starin' contest with the walls
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I'm givin' in to my intrusive thoughts
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What if I never find anybody to love
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Or I finally get the chance and I fuck it all up?
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'cause I can't get hurt if I'm the first one to leave
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Woah, what if I get to heaven and it's not even real
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And I die before tellin' you how I really feel?
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'Cause it feels like hell and I just can't help but think
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That maybe love's not for me
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If you don't look too closely
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You can't even tell I'm lonely
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Even though it keeps me up at night, night, night
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I try to keep myself distracted
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But I got all these awful habits
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Of listenin' to voices in my mind, mind, mind
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Oh, starin' contest with the walls
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I'm givin' in to my intrusive thoughts
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What if I never find anybody to love
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Or I finally get the chance and I fuck it all up?
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'Cause I can't get hurt if I'm the first one to leave
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Woah, what if I get to heaven and it's not even real
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And I die before tellin' you how I really feel?
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'Cause it feels like hell and I just can't help but think
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That maybe love's not for me
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Maybe love's not for me, oh-oh-oh
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Maybe love's not for me
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Maybe love's not for me
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For me, for me, for me
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Maybe love's not for me
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Intrusive Thoughts
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Natalie Jane |