[1st Verse]
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Picture me
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In a casket
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Blasted
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Never nobody
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Knew how long
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The pain lasted
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Keep my eyes tight
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I'm frightened
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But I fights like Tyson
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When playin' this game of life
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I'm losing
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Longing to be enlightened
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Absorb my mind state
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Reduce the crime rate
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And take me out
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When running toward the Lord
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I see 'em fake me
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Out shook me
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So from church I play hookie
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Listen to the words of a brother
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The sick stutters
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So you better better
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Get the get the bags ready
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Comes a killer killer
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Like Skagnetti
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My brains contaminated
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Hella rotten
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Wasn't me that killed you
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Who was it what was it
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The effects of the mildew
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My brain's wilted
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In my eyes the world is a bit tilted
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Lord take me away
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Before somebody else gets killed
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Blood spilled
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Seriously
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This is the letter to my homies
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I'll be missin'
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God told me to behold a pale horse
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But I didn't listen
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It's hard man
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My life is scarred man
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I'm losing my mind
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So now it's time
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Sincerely sign
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N9NE
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[Chorus]
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I just wanna die
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I don't want to wake up
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I don't wanna cuz
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That's the way that I feel
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I'm barely hanging on
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I don't want to wake up
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I don't wanna cuz
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That's the way it has to be
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[repeat 2x]
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[2nd Verse]
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I made your life a living hell
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With my infidelity
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Remember your telling me
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All I give a damn about
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Is weed stems and melodies
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Remember you
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Spent 30 minutes in the hospital parking lot
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Crying
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When the blood test read
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The baby of another woman was mine
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99.99
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You should've left
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Along time ago like Mary J. say
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Just let it go like Ray J.
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Con't
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I know your mamma heard
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You yelling mayday
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Spent my life trying to R-A to the P
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You sick of me
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Always bein' B to the R-O-K to the E
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Now there's nothin'
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Else left of me
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I was a bum
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But you still wanted some
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Through the rain, snow and thunder
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Foul ups, bleeps and blunders
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But no man shall tear asunder
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Is what you said
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You should've put multi bullets
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In my head
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When you found that evil
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Instinct was a song
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Where the events actually went on
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This is the letter
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To my homie, my friend
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Who put up with me for 8
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So now to take me
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Really quickly is my fate
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I'm sorry
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For making it hard
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I know your scarred
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I'm losing my mind
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So now it's time
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Sincerely sign
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N9ne
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[Chorus]
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I just want to die
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I don't want to wake up
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I don't wanna cuz
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That's the way that I feel
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I'm barely hanging on
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I don't want to wake up
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I don't wanna cuz
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That's the way it has to be
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[repeat 2x]
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[3rd Verse]
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I love ya'll
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The dynamic duo, my babies
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It ain't your fault
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That your daddy's crazy
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Donny,
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I miss your drumming like me
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One day you'll be ruling
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Leelee,
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I miss you in my face
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Yellin'
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Daddy, what you doin'
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You two are the reason
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Why I'm still standing today
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But I'm 1600 miles away
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And you get my heart sinkin'
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When I start thinkin' about you babies
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I heavily start drinkin'
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On a daily puffin'
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I'm seeing my heart
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I gots to toughin'
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Can't see me leavin' my angels with nothin'
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So I keep bussin'
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Use my pain for you two
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I've gotta come up in the game
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So one day you can do the same with yours
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Love you galore
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And I ain't playin'
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makin' me put an end
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To this suicidal mind state sayin'
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[chorus]
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I don't want to wake up
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I don't wanna cuz
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That's the way I feel
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I'm barely hanging on
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I don't want to wake up
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I don't wanna cuz
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That's the way it has to be
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[repeat 2x]
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Suicide Letters
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Tech N9ne |