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Yo, we gotta start respectin life more y'all
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You look at your brother man you gotta see yourself
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Gotta see the God within him
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Brothers gettin changed real quick over nothin
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We losin too many of ours
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Gotta recreate y'all
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Yo, check it
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Knowin you the best part of life, do I have the right to take yours
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Cause I created you, irresponsibly
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Subconciously knowin the act I was a part of
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The start of somethin, I'm not ready to bring into the world
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Had myself believin I was sterile
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I look into mother's stomach, wonder if you are a boy or a girl
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Turnin this woman's womb into a tomb
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But she and I agree, a seed we don't need
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You would've been much more than a mouth to feed
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But someone, I woulda fed this information I read
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to someone, my life for you I woulda had to leave
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Instead I lead you to death
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I'm sorry for takin your first breath, first step, and first cry
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But I wasn't prepared mentally nor financially
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Havin a child shouldn't have to bring out the man in me
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Plus I wanted you to be raised within a family
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I don't wanna, go through the drama of havin a baby's momma
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Weekend visits and buyin J's ain't gon' make me a father
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For a while bearing a child is somethin I never wanted to do
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For me to live forever I can only do that through you
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Nerve I got to talk about them niggaz with a gun
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Must have really thought I was God to take the life of my son
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I could have sacrificed goin out
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To think my homies who did it I used to joke about, from now on
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I'ma use self control instead of birth control
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Cause $315 ain't worth your soul
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$315 ain't worth your soul
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$315 ain't worth it
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[Lauryn Hill (two layers of vocals, same words)]
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I, never dreamed you'd leave, in summer
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You said you would be here when it rained
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[Common] Yo
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Why didn't you stay
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Seeing you as a present and a gift in itself
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You had our child in you, I probably never feel what you felt
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But you dealt with it like the strong black woman you are
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Through our trials and tribulations, child's elimination
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An intergration of thoughts I feel about the situation
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Back and forth my feelings was pacin
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Happy deep down but not joyed enough to have it
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But even that's a lie in less than two weeks, we was back at it
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Is this unprotected love or safe to say it's lust
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Bustin, more than the sweat in somebody you trust
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Or is it that we don't trust each other enough
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And believe, havin this child'll make us have to stay together
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Girl I want you in my life cause you have made it better
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Thinkin we all in love cause we can spend a day together
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We talkin spendin the rest of our lives
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It's too many black women that can say they mothers
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but can't say that they wives
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I wouldn't chose any other to mother my understanding
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But I want our Parenthood to come from Planning
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It's so much in my life that's undone
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We gotta see eye to eye, about family, before we can become one
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If you had decided to have it the situation I wouldn't run from
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But I'm walkin, findin myself in my God
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So I can, discipline my son with my writin
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Not have a judge tellin me how and when to raise my seed
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Though his death was at our greed, with no one else to blame
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I had a book of Afrikan names, case our minds changed
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You say your period hasn't came, and lately I've been sleepy
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So quit smokin the weed and the beadies and let's have this boy
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[Lauryn Hill]
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I, never dreamed you'd leave in summer
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You said you wo
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Retrospect for Life
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Lauryn Hill |