Is it a blessin' to live or a blessin' to die?
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Let me finish off this hell with no questions why
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I should be happy i'm on and i'm dressed in fly but is the game changing me for
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the extra pie?
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if you could just look into the life i live
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360 catching up on all the trife I did
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got my peoples up north trynna slice the bids
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while i'm in love with a Nigga with a wife and kid
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Maybe if my pops aint abondend me
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i wouldn't let so many niggas take advantage of me
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using me
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some even put their hands on me
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I wonder what the most high god planned for me
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my life line gettin' shorter when i look at my palms
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will I be notin' like my biological moms
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she aint raised me so naturally I never felt the bond
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at 16 got my GED never saw a prom
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Chorus: I've been weak and i've been strong
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been through the fire ive'been through the storms
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I try to do right and i know i do wrong
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just be happy for me when my life is gone
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no more hurt and no more tears
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the'll be no more pain and no more fears
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No more people in my face that's
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not sincere so
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smile for me when i'm no longer here
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At a younge age i let the world turn me out
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pellets and purple haze been burnt me out
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a hardknock life was i learned about
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trynna ease the only thing I be concerned about
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tellin' my youth everything happen for a reason
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let them know it aint daddy's fault the moneys be leavin'
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if it wasn't for the streets he'd still be breathin;
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trynna raise him by myself but i know he need him
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me and my seed used to live for mostly welfare
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only two checks a month for us both to share
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I remember makin' sure that the cost was clear so i could boost us
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some mother fuckin' clothes to wear
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had to hustle cuz those food stamps just wasn't enough
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up state back to ? gotta throw me up
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all this fast cash only turned the heat up
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can't afford to get knocked but who gonna feed us?
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Chorus
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Can't shake these thoughts of suicide
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anyone i ever loved though was close to die
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ones i trusted or though was being true, lied
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a life time of tears but just a few i cried
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try to take my past and stick it up on the shelf
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will my actions stay from all the pain i felt
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just trynna make the best out the hand i delt
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if i fall who can i turn to for help
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is my man with me and not my wealth
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will he be there through good and bad sickness and health
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does he want the real me or somebody else?
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I've been ? just so i don't hurt myself
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now that i'm on
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most can't stand me now
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but they was happy when i rocked all them hand me downs
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when i need 'em funny how they can't be found
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that's why the most high's my only family now
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Chorus
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Smile 4 Me
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