If I had forever
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I would live this silence
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I would feed this disease
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Of which you are the cause
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You are the cure
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So hated and yet so sought
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Penetrating my everything
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I thought I did
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I thought I would
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Be able to put this off forever
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But now as my time fades away
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It seems a new reality hits
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And the insured tomorrow is not a constant for me
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With this impending death
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I admit to myself
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With me shall die my petty dreams
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The blood washes off and yet the shame prevails
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Tearing from the eyesockets the tellers of this tale
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To die with nothing
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Is a choice I've made
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To derpive myself
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Not telling you
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Just how I live through this
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Never will you hear my confessions
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Like the obsession that was born of crayons and toys
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And shall die with me today
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The blood washes off and yet the shame prevails
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Tearing from the eyesockets the tellers of this tale
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It's untold
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And now this loathesome beast
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This would've-could've-should've spectre
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Will crawl into my deathbed
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And I shall smell it's foul breath
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My death will pain me tenfold
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Because no one will know
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To hell with the spent years
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and fuck the shed tears
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I'll burn the books and sketches
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But my guilt will keep knocking
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Knocking
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Knocking on my bedroom door
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Purest Intent
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Dark Day Dawning |