do you go to the dungeon to find out how to make peace with your days in the dungeon writing a letter
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to you didn't make me feel any more peaceful then how I felt when we weren't speaking because I
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didn't cop to what I did. I can't love you because we're supposed to have professional boundaries. i'd
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like you to be schooled and in awe as though you were kissed by god full on the lips. i'm in the front
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row the front row with popcorn I get to see you see you close up i'm too tired to recount the
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unpleasantries one by one one minute I want to banish you the next I want to be on
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a deserted island with you along with my three favorite cd's ambivalent yet in your
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bed we've yet to acknowledge what really happened
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slid into the ditch I have this overwhelming loss of ambition we said let's name thirty good reasons why
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we shouldn't be together I started by saying things like "you smoke" "you live in new jersey (too far)"
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you started saying things like "you belong to the world" all of which could have been easily
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refuted but the conversation was hypothetical I am totally short of breath for you why can't you shut
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your stuff off..... i'm in the front row the front row with popcorn I get to see you see you close up
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and I laughed until my lungs hurt I love how you bust my chops you don't always
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feel seen sometimes you feel erasable unfortunately I cannot reciprocate in my
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current state I think we should be careful of how much time we spend together........for a while i'm speaking you know how much you hate to be interrupted maybe spend some
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time alone to fill up your proverbial cup so that it doesn't always have to be about you i've been wanting
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your undivided attention I like the fact that you're nothing like me are you not burdened by the lack of
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perspective people have of your charmed life i'm in the front row the front row with
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popcorn I get to see you see you close up you never meant to be ungrateful nor held up to
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be whipped or wept for certainly not analysed prodded at more ways than one
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apparently you've been misrepresented dealing with the concept of arrows being
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slung towards your outrageous fortune
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hey i'm not mad at you guardian i'm mad at myself for spending so much time with you and your
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jeckyl and hydeness i'm glad i figuratively slapped you on the wrist you laughed a wicked laugh
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and said "come here let me clip your wings!"(i know he's blood but you can still turn him away you
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don't owe him anything) "raise the roof" he yelled "yeah raise the roof!" I yelled back. (unfortunately
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you needed a health scare to reprioritize.) no thanks to the soap box. having me rile against them
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won't make an ounce of difference...... i'm in the front row the front row with popcorn. I get to see
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you see you close up oh the things i've done for you many a sitch a friend a man's
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been left for you oh the books i've read for you the tongues i've bitten for you many
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a new city for you many a risk taken for you (not a single regret)
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Alanis Morissette |