my mother used to whore herself
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and my father
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would reap the benefits of her labor
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it was almost as if she was absent
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absent from her own life
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i remember
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she would scrub the floors for the white folks
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just to come home
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to cook and to clean
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for the man who broke her
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and i Love to watch her dance to the tunes on
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the soul stations, yeah
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just to ease her mind
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but my mother
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she was vindictive in her own fashion
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so she passed down to me her traits
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like that of her brown eyes and her dark hair
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she passed down to me
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her sadness
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make me wanna holler
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the sadness fills my heart
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make me wanna holler
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make me wanna holler
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make me wanna holler
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baby
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make me wanna holler
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my child will one day ask me
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what will i be?
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as a child i promised myself
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i'd never be
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like my mother or my father
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i would ask myself,
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"did he feel so much pain
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that it would make him wanna hurt another?"
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but there was no excuse
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there was no excuse to make up for the pain
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that i knew my mother felt
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but somewhere my destiny came
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that i too became a slave, to my heart
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wanting Love so badly
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that i'd do anything
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no matter the shame
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make me wanna holler
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i...
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Love me
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make me wanna holler
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tell me
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make me wanna holler
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mmm, so sorry
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make me wanna holler
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so sorry
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why?
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i never got the nerve
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to ask my father "why?"
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but my mother
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she would say,
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she stayed for my brother and myself
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but i would have sold my soul
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just to share in one day
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of my mother's desired happiness
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when night fell
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sometimes when night fell
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i'd close my eyes
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and i'd hide
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close your eyes
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when they would yell and scream
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when my father would paint her
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with a dark face
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of being belittled, disrespected
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and set aside
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his liquor, the salve
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for the unseen wounds
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i learned so much from him
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what did i learn?
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how to hurt all of those
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who try to get too close
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make me wanna holler
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make me wanna holler
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sometimes i get so...
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make me wanna holler
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i just don't understand
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why?
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make me wanna holler
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tell me why
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mmm, so sorry
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so sorry for the pain
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make me wanna holler
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so sorry
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i'm so sorry
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just play for me
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play for me
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she would close her eyes and cry
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he would close his heart and hide
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she would close her eyes and cry
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after all this time
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nothing's changed
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make me wanna holler
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make me want to holler
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yes i do
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make me wanna holler
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sell my soul just to see ya happy
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so sorry for the pain
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make me wanna holler
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so sorry, so sorry, so sorry, yeah
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make me wanna holler
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so sorry for the pain
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i always thought my mother
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deserved so much more
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but i never knew how to fix that
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i drown myself in guilt
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i just don't know what to do
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no
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mama I Love you.
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Make Me Wanna Holler
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