I¡¯m staring at your picture dad
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Pulling up the past
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Trying to learn about this father that I never had
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So young, so wrong, and ye gone
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It¡¯s only, me, mom Virginia & God
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Were all alone, and are leader is not home
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The crossroads took you or these demons below
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I¡¯m feeling the cold, you were not here, not there
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When I had my first fight I was so scared
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When I had my first kiss I could not share
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I was lost and the school they did not care
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Why¡¯d you leave me, hanging from the ceiling?
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Angels stopped singing and mom¡¯s not sleeping
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I¡¯m not bitter or mad, I¡¯m just missing a dad
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Sitting here thinking, praying wishing you back
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These feeling are wack, almost too much to bare
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I know your souls alive I just want to know where
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Are you
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Why did you leave me
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Where are you
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Were you thinking of me dad
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Are you
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Do you love me
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Where are you
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Than where are you if you do
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Well I¡¯m all grown up now moved out a P-Town
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Married this girl, mom said you¡¯d be so proud
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I even slimmed down I¡¯m hanging with a new crowd
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If only you¡¯re around, you¡¯d see what I can do now
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I travel the globe, singing bringing a hope
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Through hip hop rocking roll lifting the soul
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They say I look like you, your smile & eyes too
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I got moms hair thank God I was frightful
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I know you can¡¯t come back from the past
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But the fact that you left and the damage is bad
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I don¡¯t know if mom fears or if she ever got healed
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Or if she blames you and God over the years
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You were my dad, and I was your son
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If only you new what it was like growing up
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When I look at the sky I get this thought in my mind
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And wonder what it be like if your still alive
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I¡¯m still trying figure out what when on in the house
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What voice was talking loud what made you kill yourself?
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Was it something I did, I said, as little kid?
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Something like a fib that you can¡¯t forgive?
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My life was so hard lost my only body guard
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Slowly God healed the scars let¡¯s say you left a mark
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I¡¯ve had the same thoughts that talked to you, Talk to me,
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I had to see a shrink but now I¡¯m back on my feet
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I battle thoughts with words, using psalms & verbs
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A new rebirth no longer Am I insecure
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I heard a voice say I¡¯ll never leave ye
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But I didn¡¯t see ye I¡¯ve forgotten you like amnesia
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I believe I¡¯ll see you some where in heaven
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Where we can talk and I can ask you a question
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But for now, I¡¯m a move on be strong
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Where Are You
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Manafest |