[Intro: Natalia Kills]
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You should write a song where the concept is…
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You’re basically writing like a love letter, or like a piece of advice
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To your mother, when she was your age
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[Bridge: Angel Haze]
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I don’t know
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Maybe I would write you a happy ending
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I would rearrange the pieces to your sad beginning
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I would put you far away from the decaying roots that bore you
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And let you experience all the ways that happiness could bloom before you
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Or maybe I’m naive…
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Maybe I’m just a kid who thought that if she could plant a seed
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It would somehow grow inside you
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[Verse 1: Angel Haze]
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Spent so much of my time wishing you were different
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But reality is that, where life could never be provisioned
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But if I could wish for one thing, I’d go back and I’d fix it
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I’d tackle all your obstacles and kill them with precision
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And better the intentions of every single person
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Who play a part in you learning exactly what your worth is
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I’d shower you with purpose, I’d wipe hate off the surface
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I’d reshape all your pain and make it fucking worth it
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No more feeling worthless, no more fucking searching
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No more of that fraud shit, nobody else could hurt you
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Yeah, said nobody else could hurt you
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And if they ever tried too I’d wipe ‘em from the Earth too
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Cuz I know that you hurting baby, I know that you tired too
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I know that you been running from everything that’s behind you
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I know that you’ve been burying everything deep inside you
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I can see it killing you, wish that I could revive you
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But I’m stuck sitting in this time frame
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Struggling with my demons and playing these stupid mind game
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One day it could get better, maybe it could get better
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Maybe we could change shit, no more inclement weather
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Know you hated your mom, know it went through your mind
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You were just like me, wish that you had more time
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To see life from a different angle, wrestle with a different angel
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Wouldn’t lose your wings and fall from heaven like a cliffhanger
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[Verse 2: Angel Haze]
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Everything is different now, nothing is the same
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And nowadays I swear it feels like you don’t know my name
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But I look at the mirror and I see you every day
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I’m you in every way, every hue and every shade
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And maybe you should know, it’s the last thing that I wanted
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Cuz what I hate about you makes me feel like I’m haunted
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And I don’t wanna spend the rest of my time on the run and-
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So I’m just gonna confront it, yeah I’m just gonna confront it
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And tell you that I love you for everything you made me
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And that you need to hear this even if it makes you angry
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God lives inside you, you’ve already found him
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The Devil lives in memories and you just let him hound you
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And I despise the church for everything that they taught you
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It’s just a fucking stain that I wish I could wipe off you
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That I wish I could wipe off you
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And I forgive you for doing everything that it cost you
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Everything that it cost you
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Fame is such a heavy price I wish it didn’t cost you
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Losing a part of me that would follow you to Hell
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Follow you to hatred, or follow you to jail
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Followed you to patterns that I could never get out of
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Now I realize that I could never make it with that love
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Now I realize that shit is the alternative outcome
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Never wanted you to save me, I just wish I count some
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I just wish that you grew up with someone you could count on
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I just wish you knew that you could never make it without love
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For your goddamn self, and that you never ever find it in anybody else
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Cuz I would help you find you
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And if I saw it killing you I swear I would revive you
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And if that meant the end of me
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I’d do it all for you so you could have your happy end and peace
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[Bridge 2: Natalia Kills]
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Because, you are such a special thing
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You’re not just my mom, but you’re the reason I exist
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And the best life that you could’ve had for yourself without making a mistake
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Would have meant I woulda had a nicer childhood
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And even though my childhood wasn’t perfect and I still love you
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I just want you to know that if I could go back do one thing for you
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