When I got the news I kinda already knew
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Because of the morning sickness and the pain on my left side has shifted
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I tried to ignore all the signs of fertility
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Only focus on how was gonna face this humility
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Something told me to pray but instead I called the clinic
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I had to contact a medic so many thoughts in my head were spinning
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With no respect for the life in me, I scheduled to have it killed
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Then I thought to myself, damn I should've used that 72 hours pill
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Knowing that this is labeled wrong I still felt I was doing what I have to
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Justifying my decision making by
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Ignoring that this is a real life I'm taking
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I told myself "it's the first trimester there's no form yet it's not that bad"
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It's too soon to even tell this dude he was about to be a dad
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So I went to bed that night with all those thoughts on my mind
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Tryin to hold on to whatever peace I can find
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And I had a dream that night and the child began to speak
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He said "there are certain things I have to say to you before you get rid of me
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First of all I would've loved to play the piano and I wanted to teach
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There are also other things I would've done to make you proud
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You see, it's hurts me that you would just throw me away
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I never even asked to be, well I did ask God to send me to a person who would take good care of me
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But I never thought I'd reach that place and then be cut up and flushed
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Instead of this boodoo therefor I've been sentenced that
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Rather your warm love and touch
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I was looking forward to live life to the fullest and enjoyin every single portion
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So mommy please wherever you do don't go doing this abortion
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I promise to be good I won't ask for toys and at bed time I go straight to sleep
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Just promise me mommy in the morning you cancel that appointment to let them kill me"
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The Appointment Interlude
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Troy Ave |