sitting here thinking back
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on the better days, the days gone past
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before the change, the way things were
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when everything was new and pure
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when life was free and filled with hope
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when everything was explained in full
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those days are near forgotten
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the ache of today replaces them
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what about tomorrow?
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will I have reached the goal?
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or died forgotten,
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with nothing to show?
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"don't get your hopes up son,
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there are no guarantees in life but one
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that eventually you'll die.
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that's a guarantee you cannot escape from."
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so i'm sitting here - all alone
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it's always worse when no one's home
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why should I continue on
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if death is the only final outcome?
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to pursue some mythical success
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that some have been fooled to think exists?
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only to meet frustration and die
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still they go on trying and trying and...
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I refuse to live that lie
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but then what is there but to die?
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I knew I require some change
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but every day comes up the same...fruitless
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failure - so many say
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I slow them down i'm in the way
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spineless - got me convinced they've reached security
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weakling - got me pegged
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as if alone they've reached success
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hopeless - all I am, the difference between
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this world betrays
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this world, it feasts upon me
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failure - far too weak
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can't even stand on your own two feet
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spineless - you could never make it in this world of ours
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weakling - they scream at me
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inside your self is the strength you need
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hopeless - the strong survive the weak are devoured
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failure - I feel defeat
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but I see now they're hiding something
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spineless - draw my attention far away from hope
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weakling - away from God, away from love
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shake their fists at him above
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hopeless - could it be? he shakes the world the lie they hold
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my loneliness is evidence of my failure
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to stay would mean to pursue some goal
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which has eluded me so far
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they say I need no one else, only myself
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unfortunately that way of life leaves me nothing but hell
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Path To Sorrow
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| The Crucified |
