Father and mother divorced as I began the school in hamilton
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We had the same problem every night with daddy's addiction
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Violence and drunkeness reigned his every day and made us down
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I felt really distraught as he finally left our home
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The time after was difficult, I felt rather unnerved
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Because of my ugly appearance, they treated me like a fool
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A misfit, I was derided by the girls of our school
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I reached the height of my mental quandary
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More and more I shied away and went my lonely way
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The time of retaliation will come
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Fear, pain, torment
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They will come
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Admiration, worship
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They will treat me like a god
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To talk with my schoolmates about girls was an abomination
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Possessing a girl was my biggest sexual imagination
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I had realized that this idea could never be reality
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Dazzled through my sexual lust I planned many different stra-
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tegies
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I possessed no bad conscience only one aim in my eyes
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The act of cruelty considered the last details in my mind
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A long time to wait for the sunset and the sacrifice made me
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blind
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She was my number one girl, young with her long fair hair
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I struck her and dragged her body to the thicket where I raped
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her
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At this moment you were my girl and my dream was reality
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She saw my face, there was no other choice but to kill her
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Only now I had understood what I had done
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I left the scene of the crime quickly and went home
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I can't live with the thoughts that I killed a young girl
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This was my past but I'm not proud about now
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Although I killed a girl, they couldn't give me a life senten-
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ce
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After one year in the youth custody unit I will be free
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Fortunately we all live in a cracked system where you can kill
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Raped Bodies
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| Messiah |
