I only went and fucking did it
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Used to be a dream but now I fucking live it
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Weren't even writing raps I was down and out about to fucking quit it
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Lucky for me that I fucking didn't
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See lily came along when I was at my lowest
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Selling wraps of coke not the raps I flow with
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I made it and I owe to a chat I had with her,
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Who knows where I'd be if that chat hadn't occurred
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Back with the bag, with the bag full of herbs init
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Instead I got her on a track and I murdered it
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My name started causing murmurs in the industry
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But none of these labels would work with it until virgin did
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Put my first single out and we earned a hit
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That's why we never...
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I know it must burn a bit
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Just did a show and everybody knew the words to it
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The day I risked everything for I couldn't have given anything more all these years...
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But this is something that nothing could have readied me for
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What you think all my problems are remedied cos' I get an applause, there not
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Today I cried
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And I don't know why
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But today I cried
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And I don't know whyyy x2
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My single went in at 3
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My album went in at 2
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For a debut not to shabby if I have to I make do
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Finally some form of reward for the things I came through
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But it's different to the perfect picture people paint you
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On the way up you might be a person people take to
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Then you break through and the same people who rated you hate you
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All of a sudden anything you do may do may make news
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And I'm sick to death of explaining was is and aint' true
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Spend a day in my shoes and maybe you would feel the same to
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Though I know I've got to make the most of it there will be no take 2
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And ungrateful I would hate to seem cos' I'm leaving my dream now
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But I don't sleep now
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And all the hours awake are making me senile
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Snap...
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Even people I've been round my whole life are looking at me like I'm a new me now
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They say I've changed but I just don't see how
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I've always lived my life taking corners that I can't see round
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Never knowing what it is I'm trying to seek out
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But I'm even beginning to question me now
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Today I cried
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And I don't know why
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But today I cried
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And I don't know whyyy (don't know why I crieddd)
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I know it must seem mad to you
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It's mad to me
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All I've done is what I've had to do
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Been who I've had to be
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But the path I've walked has been so gravely
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It's been a strain to remain humane amongst all this inhumanity
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Thankfully I had nan who was a mum and dad to me
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You can choose your friends but you can't choose your family
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Temporary happiness for me has been a fallacy
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...
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Sick of hearing how happy I should be
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I just don't know how to be
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I can no longer pretend
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No more making out to be
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Maybe all I needs a slap,
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Someone to shake it out of me
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Help me to spell my irrational thoughts think more rationally
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Sick of being in the state of vanity
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It's agony
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Am I torn or is it all some twisted form of vanity
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Can it be I'm really just obsessed with myself, obsessive compulsive depressed, my pressures reflecting my health
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Taking care of my career but I'm neglecting myself
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Rejected therapy no I just won't except any help
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I pride myself on my honestly but in all honestly today I lied
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I was asked how I was and I said I was fine, I'm not
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Today I cried
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And I don't know why
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But today I cried
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And I don't know whyyy x3
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Today I Cried
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| Professor Green |
