Sunk so deep you won't believe,
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I can't proceed with this over me,
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I know what you think when you say my name,
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Talk about me like "Oh he changed,"
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Another dope is up his nose,
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And I don't know if I can trust him,
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And the smell of alcohol is too much for me to go hug him,
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And it's hard to take, hard to watch, hard to look away.
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But it's worst to be in the middle of this shit,
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Try to make up why to stay.
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So I underestimate people, lie to myself,
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But I'm easy to see trough,
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Used to be so proud but, take a look at these eyes,
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Take a look at me now.
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Everybody got a problem with me,
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But then again no one said life's easy,
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Now I gotta watch where I put my feet,
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Some don't even want to look at me.
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Every now and then I think back,
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If I took another choice where will I be at?
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Momma said I'm proud of you, and my dad want to help me, guide me through,
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And I DO want to change, but I keep coming back to the same old same,
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Snort a line, while I write a rime about quitting shit for a better life.
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What the fuck is that, where's the discipline?
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This thing to bring out the bitch in me,
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And did I make this song for the sympathy?
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I don't now what it is but I'm sick of it.
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Look into my nephew's eyes, I see myself back when
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I didn't care about nothing, I'll rather be alone for now,
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Figure out, how to bring myself back down, on the ground.
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Cause now I am flying higher than I ever could imagine,
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And I was supposed to be scared of heights, like what happened?
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I guess we changed, some for the better, some for the worse.
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I'm stuck somewhere between and it hurts.
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It's dark tonight, I miss the sunlight,
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I miss saying things like "thanks I'm alright."
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When you ask me, how I'm feeling, well I'm happy, when I'm dreaming.
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It's a whole other world in my head, when I close my eyes in my bed.
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Cause I make up places and people, replace myself if I need to.
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Three little birds on my doorstep,
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I see what it means when I go there.
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So peaceful, so quiet, all alone, but self reliant,
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I came to the point when I put the mic down and said I'm done.
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And with a life like this you might just feel like
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Putting steel on your tongue.
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Cause I swear to God, I've seen suicides, I knew people who took the wrong,
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So rest in peace to the people I knew, cause I know you can hear my song.
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And I will be strong for me and you, do what they tell me that I can't do,
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In all your names, I'm-ma fight, so I walk on the stage for you tonight.
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So when the light hits me I'm-ma shine for you,
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Bottom line I'm-ma lie for you, they gotta kill me to make us meet again,
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Cause I'm never giving up, I ain't leaving yes.
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It's not for me no more, it's for all of us,
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I see you when I see you, I love you all.
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Look into my nephew's eyes, I see myself back when
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I didn't care about nothing, I'll rather be alone for now,
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Figure out, how to bring myself back down, on the ground.
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Cause now I am flying higher than I ever could imagine,
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And I was supposed to be scared of heights, like what happened?
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I guess we changed, some for the better, some for the worse.
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I'm stuck somewhere between and it hurts.
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Cause now I am flying higher than I ever could imagine,
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And I was supposed to be scared of heights, like what happened?
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I guess we changed, some for the better, some for the worse.
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I'm stuck somewhere between and it hurts.
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Fucked Up!
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| Sirius |
